Cooling off with F.

F. eventually contacted me on Monday, emailed to say he had a nice time. Some short notes back and forth. On Thursday I finally sorted out when I would see my daughter's play at RADA - Saturday evening. Son coming over for the day Sunday. So I apologised for the late notice but would he like a quiet evening on Friday or I could cook him lunch Saturday. No, he's going to a funeral on Saturday. Another time. OK, another time. Today he suggested we meet up at mine and go for a meal on Monday. That's OK, but there's no way I'm indulging in hanky panky on a week night on a full stomach. Let's see if it's me he likes or if he has a typical one track mind.

Old boyfriend J.

In the mean time.....

Talk about having fun....

J. called, the ex boyfriend. It was really nice talking to him again and even though there were a lot of difficult things between us, we definitely have good communications. I wonder if it would work better if I ignore all the long term no-no's like his ex wife and problems with contact with his children and his odd friends. Well, we're keeping in touch.

The guy I was corresponding with has fizzled out, though he said he wanted to carry on, things were getting interesting. I can't figure people out somehow. Maybe they just want a pen pal.

Another guy who was really, and I mean really, interesting. Quite a sharp tongue on him. Very intellectual. Was going well then that stopped suddenly.

And now a very sweet guy who is a professional guitarist and singer and even lives locally. Wants to meet for a drink.

I'm feeling very much on my own and loving it. Totally.

Food for thought - I remember what my therapist said to me, about being attracted to men who are unavailable for some reason. Hmmmmm....

R. can't be contacted

While all this is going on, my telephone friend R. who I've been talking to most nights for the past few years is really ill (cancer and secondaries all over the place) and can't contact me. His old partner has stopped work to look after him. He's very protective of him. All these men together, can't be good. I feel a bit useless as I've always been able to cheer up R. even in his darkest times. I hope he's OK. He managed to send out a secretive email to me to say he's still alive but not quite kicking but I can't write back or it'll be discovered that he's contacted me.

At least he's still alive.