Yes, it's over
It worked out OK in the end. J said he'd still like to see me and I him, but not with a long term relationship in mind. He said he'd call on Saturday and didn't. So that was it as far as I was concerned. He called on Sunday and apologised for not calling Saturday and I just said I didn't think it would work but it would be nice to keep in touch and see how we were getting on with life. Haven't heard from him since and don't expect to either. A little sad, I suppose, but not much. Just thought of him once on the bus into work.
F. my Persian date
These half hour bus journeys are dreadful on the imagination. I take a book to read but wander off all the time. Keep thinking about my new guy F. We will be meeting on a proper date tomorrow. Cos I hadn't seen J. for such a long time it's been 2 months since being out with a man. I wish the reality would be as good as my imagination!
We are going to a local Persian restaurant he thinks is really good. This still hasn't stopped me from looking at the dating web sites again. So many men and not enough time!!! but anyway, we'll see how it goes tomorrow.
Job going well but may end
They throw all kinds of research and taks at me, stuff nobody else can concentrate on or has time to do. That's what I love. But the person I'm replacing is expected back from maternity leave in 3 weeks and that's all I have left to work. They didn't like the person I replaced and as she hasn't made contact with them for over a year they think she may not be coming back. But I'll have to 'sign off' contract on the day she's due back and see what happens. I hope they'll keep me on.
I love the mornings going to work. Walking down my road into the sunrise every day. It's been so calm and beautiful. Slightly chilly. Still very tired but getting much better. Although it's nearly 3pm now and I still haven't got dressed. Nice to have a lazy day. Bu&&er - I have to go into town and buy something nice for tomorrow!!! EEEEEEK!!!
Nice to have some money in the bank account again. Even if it's only for a few weeks.
I'm curious to find out how the creative side of me disappears when things are going well. I can't imagine who I was a year ago. Why can't I be creative when I'm happy?
Better get dressed and go out. Planning on a nice relaxing day with a lovely bath and essential oils before I meet F tomorrow evening. Can't do it without something decent to wear.
